and the story goes..

today i was misunderstood not once but thrice...
yes!!! Thrice in a FUCking day..how lovely is tat...
esp.when one of them came from the person dearest to me...
the feeling was damn slam lor ....

it was like being ran over a trailer 100x...
dropped a one liner summary explanation of the incident to her then i juz fuck off.. ANGST was like raging hormones burning inside me...
wanted to juz fuck it and ignore hlf of my functioning world...

cos y bother!!

so while on the bus...
i began to ignore and ignore and ignore and ignore...
while ignoring ...

i wanted so much so badly to call or msg him to pour out my soul...

but had to hold back cos i can feel the tears of anger were at the brink of rolling down my cheeks with ey tot of it...thus imagine toking bout it

(heng ah nvr, if not so ma lu)...

okok i was juz being a CRYbABY....

juz let me be lah...i m HMS-ing (having menstrual stress)
but being the 'useless" me...

after 3x20 deep breath...i "gave in"

(how to be mad at her when she had been my dearest for so long)...

my heart juz soften lor, i replied to her smses...

cos jeopardising our beautiful friendship over such minor issue isnt worth it at all....guess she too felt my anger and disappointment...

Well Tough transitions lately. And I thought I was doing so well.

Oh well, any progress is better than none.

Every day I learn a little more.

oh , i started my day with SHIT rite and guess wat !!

it ended with with the same note too, SHIT!!

isnt it sweet to know that life is treating me so LOVELY!!

(had an arguement with him..

i really utterly disappoint him to the max

on the ending note, ok was at fault ...

sorry loh ...)

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he said that i am becoming an ah gua..

breaking down in tears so easily now...

hmm...i tot so too...

i m no longer the super super tough cookie i used to be...

the shed no tear wmn...

even at the most touching scene or situation

i can hold my tears damn well...really damn well

but now i tend to be more emotional..

i oso duno y leh..

maybe theres an increase in WMn HORMONE in me now..hahaha

but come to think of it, my "crying" session comes once a mth..

so it muz be the PMS, HMS & PMS lah

(pre menstrual stress, having menstrual stress , post menstrual stress)

hahaha i love being a menstruating wmn