TODAY i went HYSTERICAL...
i CRIED like nobody business
(yes i do cry...i m not so man after all one)
& xploded out my best kept and darkest secret...
for the past 6mths..
just cos he HIT the JACKPOT.
yes i got my usual spread of TOASTING...
a major toasting session...i would say
but yet i oso got one of the best TOAST session...
which left behind sweetness in my heart...even till now
he "solved" all the worries i had for the past 6mths..
made me a "freeier person"
a HAPPIER person again
C
i had been too free
and had spend way too much time worrying about everytin...
but being a wmn...
but being a wmn...
we have the rights for "free thinkin" aka "anyhow tink" mah
but anyway...
but anyway...
i nvr realise that the time and effort spent worrying
can b a drain on both the emotional and physical health.
The more time we spend ruminating about something,
The more time we spend ruminating about something,
the bigger it gets.
i did the mistake
and my worries juz got bigger and more negative..
(SO HUGE you know, not lying...
i did the mistake
and my worries juz got bigger and more negative..
(SO HUGE you know, not lying...
i went thru some form of depression...u duno rite...)
i will KI SEOW one..which i did
....
I did wonder how i land myslf into such state...
many times i cant help but agree with what my closests always say...
that i m juz too nice...
too nice to eybody and anybody
that many times i m being taken for granted and advantage of..
C
maybe they are rite...
cos all these "advantage"and "for granted" takings
becum just too big for me to handle that,
i m no longer able to respond to situations with equanimity
but rather with misery..
no longer able to accept tins and get a grip of my thoughts
i reallyduno wat happen ...somewhere dwn the road...
tins juz seem to hit on me one by one...
then eything lump together & became something BIG ...
i became short fused...short plug...eything oso short ...
no longer able to accept tins and get a grip of my thoughts
i reallyduno wat happen ...somewhere dwn the road...
tins juz seem to hit on me one by one...
then eything lump together & became something BIG ...
i became short fused...short plug...eything oso short ...
& the worst was i didnt wana share...or seek for help..
cos i have this ultimate ego problem...
i wana be the usual strong wmn who can solve any big issue that cums to me...
but guess all in all this ego got too heavy and demanding..
caused me to breakdown majorly...
maybe its time for me to
stop being SELF-LES..
but be a part time FISH MONGER and start SELlin -FISH...
C
thank you for making me WHOLE again :)