on a lazy afternoon, someone i know barely for 6hrs
made this comment...
"hey i like you, confident lady cool..."
hmmm...me confident???...
it left me thinking...
so is it confidence and arrogance
or confidence and having a "heck care" attitude that he meant...
cos its a thin thin line between both only leh....hahhaha....
i duno...cos i dun think i m confident..
i guess i m more bo chap
but confidence does come naturally to some....but not to me ah..
guess a huge part of it is more of a choice...
everyone has their insecurities and their need for affirmation
and it takes a conscious effort to battle down negative thoughts,
laugh at yourself and push youself forward again.
but well being human, it seems like an almost impossible task
unless we have supernatural strength...
(yeah give me the power of STORM pls)
But truly yet sadly as i aged hahahha
it actually required me to look more often, deep within myself
and understand why i feel/felt the way i do/did and spell it out . ...
no more BRATSER moment of "i am like that WAT!"
and stomp away and sulk and ignore.....
okok though it still happens at times of course....
BUT in reality, i think it IS alot easier and more effective to be calm
and rational about it, then tantrumy and sleeping
with a lump in your throat....
how fascinating but sadly its true...
(OMG...i sound old)