as much as I know that the game of organizational politics is inevitable,

and at times, extremely exhausting.

But I am still not liking what I hear,

especially when they are pertaining to mentors of mine...

 

just what an attempt to establish superiority over others

purely based on colors.

 

You, WHITE SWINES.

 

 

 

 

77 days after leaving my job, to being a part time SAHM.

Being a SAHM doesn’t come naturally to me.

It’s physically, mentally and emotionally straining and more exhausting than any job I’ve ever had, not that i have many.

It brings out the extreme emotions in me and i wonder if i should be in therapy of sorts,

put on whisky drip or mayb just admit that i wasnt cut out to do this.

The work never ends, but thankfully it’s possible to take a break when mummy is just a 15mins drive away.

Many days I have to refrain from going back to my old job.

I was satisfied with my job, though its not the best paying with the best working hours.

But the commitment and effort put in it, was not just the glitz and glamour people saw

It took us 6 years to bring us from the red to double turnover in 3 successive year of growth,

from an almost non exisitant store front, to one of the top 10 shoes and jewelry store ww - beating some of bigger stores.

The adrenaline and satisfaction i got, no one can understand.

I was a financially independent, confident professional–a stark contrast to what I’ve become.

While I understand that the money my husband earns is “our” money, but my name isnt on the slip.

After 10 years of earning my own pay, I struggle with asking my husband for money.

Sadly, my sense of identity and ego have been altered dramatically.

I am a capricorn - 

I worry I’ve lost the credibility I spent years establishing.

Yes, I understand that I’m lucky, just how many women would love to be in my shoes.

But sometimes it can be challenging to frequently struggle to stomp down

the negativity that bubbles to the surface

I’m not sure when I’ll go back to work outside the home.

Instead of jumping back into the office world, i  hope to start my own stuff and see if I can.

Ok, done with my ranting, back to my love.

after almost a decade,

i am finally bidding adieu to what many will die for...

i, thank you, for

 the amazing and bursting at the seams wardrobe,

the deficit bank account always,

the trees killed,

the software(s) mastered,

the bitch cultivated within,

most importantly, the amazing friendship(s) built.

i will miss you much

My last draw of craziness...
"Desk warming party"
Goodbye level 10 and hello 7.

HOWDY!!

Its been a while..

c

once again it's to, the land of FRENCH FLIES and submerging myself in the GLAMOUR hundreds adore,

all in the sequel of obligation.

c
ok so reluctantly i am back ...
to my seat and my "almost" untouched but dustier desk...

with 2099 mails to clear...
lets see how far this journey will go...

QUIT PLAYING GAMES WITH MY MIND

try harder next time.

c

A for AUNTIES

as they return with a vengence,

I am so glad that i am out of it.

c

(good luck my dear nana and vicvic)

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... HOLIDAY(s) !!!...
14days + 112 days = 126days
omg, fleeting to the air,
is a passion filled with your green-eyed jealousy, but who cares duh :D

c

The holiest of holidays are those
Kept by ourselves in silence and apart;

The secret anniversaries of the heart.

- Henry Wadsworth Longfellow-

c

whos deadliest?!?

1) dead people

2) dying people

3) people who are afraid to die c

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the latter of cos and i was travelling in a taxi full of them this afternoon..

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they kept me going...

c

x. Am I pursuing my dream, or is fear stopping me?

x. Am I doing something that matters?

x. What am I doing to live with passion, health & energy?

c

Some I have no answers to - I'm in a mid-life crisis.

c

"Think long term; live for the present.

Here’s to the nights we felt alive,

Here’s to the tears you knew you’d cry,

Here’s to goodbye, Tomorrow’s gonna come too soon.

Without hardship, life is nothing.

But without love & passion, there is no joy, and life is not worth living."

cc

When was the last time I lived with passion,

and not give a damn about what other people think?

cc

Well stop complaining, start living.
c

I love my job

*period*

c

c i have issue(s) with ABCs who flaunt their DO RE MEs.

But what to do, i am only a SBC, who know 123s.

c

(read 7pm on a monday blue-d evening in the office)

c

*RING RING RING RING*

ME : Harlow...

M : hello...ehh Glad you OT ah...

Me : ah duh!

M : no i called to ask you ... blah blah blah...

c

so....the moral is....why did u call my extension,

if you are not expecting me to work OT leh O.O !!

c

'Blessed is the man who expects nothing,

for he shall never be disappointed' was the ninth beatitude.

-ALEXANDER POPE-

C

but just dun take me for granted.

and so when is enough, enough?

cc

Instead of striving for perfection,

when will they ever learn to see the perfection

in the ‘imperfection’ of things?

cc

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(random moment in the office)

DP : Post AGF!

ME : AGF??!!

DP : AGF - ANNUAL GAMBLING FESTIVAL

ME : Whahahha i like! sound so atas

DP : Atas hor! In mandarin, sound even better...

DP : 一年一度的赌博省会

ME : hahahhaha

c

randomness from paris.

"SHOW ME MY SUNSHINE"

-it aint gona happen any more-

c

c

COMMENT OF THE WEEK

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"ehhh...whenever i walked pass your store ah,

its like "RECESSION!!??!! WHERE??"

c

the infamous 4 letter word,

which will brng out the worst of (wo)men kind:-

kiasu(ism) and auntie(ism).